Breaking free

 

A very good friend of mine said this, - “I know all about brokenness, loneliness, unworthiness, hopelessness and pain. But my Jesus loves me with an undying love. He touches and heals my broken heart each time it breaks. When I remember my scars, I see the hand of Jesus. I see His scars. The scars He bears for eternity. Those scars tell a story of undying love. Every scar tells a story; a story of healing, victory and the matchless power of Jesus. Every scar is beautiful to the Lord. I had to learn not to live my life as an apology. I am who I am. While I love, laugh, cry and scream, I am me. A princess; a daughter of the Most High King. I am not proud or arrogant. But I don’t have to apologize that I laugh loud, or I am fat or that I love food or that I am loving by nature.” The more I read it, the more I realize that it resonates with how I really should feel about myself. Emotions welled up in my chest thinking about each of these words and how true they are and how I need to be reminded of this on the days I hear the enemy’s voice louder in my head; on the days I want to run away and hide in my shame.

 I face this daily battle; I have to proclaim out loud who I am in Christ Jesus and that His love is enough; that His blood covers it all; that the word of God reminds me - In Christ, I have become the righteousness of God. (2 Cor 5:21) What does God know about me? What does He call me? Song of Solomon 6: 1-3 – He calls me ‘beloved’. This is my reality; not what the enemy whispers in my ear or what others label me.  I need to be rooted in that reality. My freedom is tied to the revelation of my understanding about who I am in Jesus. This is the identity I want to walk out daily so that I can fulfil the purpose he has created me for. God looks at my history and says that it has absolutely nothing to do with my destiny. He is never against me and is always for me. I do not need to be limited to what others call me…I just need to know what God calls me. Who the Son sets free is free indeed! 

I am to break free of the limitations the enemy tries to set for me or even my own insecurities that cry out loud within me and choose daily to walk in the freedom that Jesus has set for me. I will proclaim victory over my fears, doubts and flaws. I will accept and acknowledge what the Holy Spirit speaks over my life. I am placed here on earth with a purpose and I should live a life in complete surrender to Jesus Christ and allow His will – that is good, pleasing and perfect; to manifest in and through my life.  I have worth, I have a place in God’s family, I have a purpose, I qualify for the inheritance that the father has given me, I qualify to be blessed and be a blessing to others! Because Jesus paid all my debts once and for all on the cross. I need to declare that and shout from the mountain top to all my fears and insecurities that no demon in hell and no person on earth can thwart the plan and purpose God has on my life when I stand in alignment with the Holy Spirit. If God said it, He will do it and He is not a man that he shall lie.

My identity does not start with me; it starts with Christ. Where does this leave me? Justified by grace. And when I understand this, when I finally, truly believe it, my attitude and behavior changes. I find myself wrapped in the gospel that transforms. The result is true appreciation, humility, and life-altering gratitude. I stand in complete surrender to His glorious presence and in confidence that I am finally, truly and fully loved.. just the way I am.

Written by: Anu Varghese